Today I accepted that my marriage is over, save for a miracle.  I didn't just acknowledge it; I accepted it.

Today, I brought someone back to the Lord.  Praise God.

See, life is filled with highs and lows.  And the highest of highs can sometimes happen right next to the lowest of lows.  It's strange how you can sometimes be sitting right smack in the middle of euphoric grieving.  It's a strange place to be, and a weird feeling to experience.  An, sometimes, it's exactly what you need from God for him to sustain you.

I watched the Steelers game with some neighbors.  I had a great time — friends, kids, football, food…all in all, a good way to spend a Sunday afternoon.  But eventually it started getting on toward Kaylee's bedtime, and I knew that meant returning to an empty house.  I love it here, but right now I hate it here.  So I came home. put her to bed, and despaired.  But not for long.

This morning a local friend met me for church.  She hadn't been in a long time, much like myself.  And she really felt a change as we sat there, along with most everyone who had been in the Singles class earlier in the morning.  Not only is she planning on attending regularly now, she is also hoping to get involved in some of the small groups in the church.  Again, Praise God.

This evening I received a phone call from her.  I was hurting and lonely, and it was a great time to hear from a friend.  We talked for close to an hour, and it was mostly about our faith, and how far we've both managed to come in a few short days.  It was nice to share mutual encouragement with someone and to know I'm surrounding myself with the people who will be the right kind of influence on me.

So, I've seen the top and bottom of emotion today.  Right now I'm hovering in between, and too exhausted to be concerned with moving any further toward either extreme.  Taking care of a child by yourself is hard enough in good times, let alone in trying times.  But through the Grace of our Lord, I am strengthened enough each day to survive.